Anniversary

Today is the anniversary of my marriage to my sweet husband, Terry. Not a day has gone by that he is not totally in my heart. This day we always celebrated together.
There will be a day when we are together again. Then, once again we will celebrate, forever.

Missing my best friend

Four months have gone by since my husband, my soul mate and my best friend passed away. The hurt and the emptiness are my constant companions now in times of solitude. Trying to get all debts sorted and settled certainly has kept my mind busy. But I miss having my 'best friend' to talk with. There are so many times that I find or see something and my first instinct is to think, " I have to tell Terry about this" but I am all too aware that will never again happen. I wonder to myself, will this feeling ever change? I think not. There will always be those times and reminders. Next month...his birthday. The following month....our anniversary. Since almost all of our days together were joyous ones, there will always be reminders and remembrances of great times together.

"If I could have a lifetime wish
a dream that would come true
I'd pray to God with all my heart
for yesterday and you.
A thousand words can't bring you back
I know because I've tried
And neither will a million tears
I know because I've cried.
You left behind my broken heart
and happy memories too
I never wanted memories...
I only wanted you."

Forever in my Heart

Not a day goes by when I don't think of my husband, my soul mate. During the day I can keep busy with various projects and work around the house, but the evening is the worst. As the day winds down, I sadness that I have worked with all day turns up.

People say in time the pain will be less. I am not yet convinced that they are right about that. I am a big believer in the wise words of a wise woman who knew very well the pain that death can bring. Following is the quote:

"It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone."
— Rose Kennedy

Most important in life

Early this month, my husband, my soul mate left this world. My sadness cannot be described in words. It is an emptiness, a hurt that will never heal. But I am left with the wonderful memories of our time together...mine to keep for the rest of my days.

We met online and throughout our time together, gathered friends from around the world. Our circle of friends has made this world a small one indeed. I am thankful to all who sent their thoughts and prayers in this most sad of times.

For some years now I have been working online, and have forged some awesome business friendships. They have also been right here for me, offering their kindness and support, like family.

Thank you to all family and friends everywhere, who have made this time bearable. May your blessings be many.